Heidi Newfield, <em>What Am I Waiting For</em>

Heidi Newfield
What Am I Waiting For

There isn't a lot of mainstream country music made these days that seems to speak for, and to, actual adults. Heidi Newfield's first solo album attempts to fill that void, and she has crafted an album that could only have been made by a woman who has a lot of living behind her, but still quite a bit to go.

So while love goes wrong throughout the course of What Am I Waiting For, there are no innocent illusions shattered, and when it occasionally goes right, there's little more than cautious optimism. It's interesting to compare Newfield's “All I Wanna Do” to the Sugarland smash of the same name, as both songs express the same sentiment: blocking out the rest of the world and getting lost in the arms of their mortal man. But there's a sadness to the slow ballad that Newfield is crooning, suggesting the troubles that she needs to block out are of a more harrowing nature.

Of course, that's the love gone right song, but most of the album is about processing the aftermath of poor choices that have been made, and charting a course for the future that leaves them behind. The winning title track doubles as a th

eme for the album, with Newfield “five years in to a two-year plan” and knowing that there's nothing left for her where she is, but still not quite able to make the move. Another strong track, “Wreck You”, has her taking account of the fact that no matter what she does, she only seems to damage the man that she loves.

There's a desperation to “Johnny and June”, which has her longing for a love affair like the one that's been portrayed on the movie screen in Walk the Line, but it's really just her longing for a fantasy, a romanticized version of real life that only exists on celluloid. A similar intensity surfaces in “When Tears Fall Down”, a powerful song that is probably the best-written track on the album, but is overwhelmed by the layers of production. Thematic guitar chords and gospel choruses are difficult to be heard over when it's just one of them in the mix, let alone two.

The too-busy production distracts from the many strengths of the album, and while Newfield is an effective vocalist, she doesn't sound in complete control of her surroundings. While she has a pretty good set of material to work with, songs like “Can't Let Go” and “Nothin' But a Memory” never live up to their early potential, falling short in both melody and turns of phrase.

The album closes on a high note though, with “Knocked Up”, which more than lives up to its title. It is Newfield's most self-assured moment on the album, as she deflects the finger-pointers in her midst and celebrates her life as an unwed mother. It may be an unconventional choice for the next single, but I imagine there are quite a few women (and men) out there who would embrace it as their own.



  1. I’ve been wondering about this CD. I liked “Johnny And June” well enough, but wasn’t sure if I’d like the albu’s production based on that song. So, it’s interesting that you mention the production getting in the way here.

  2. After listening to the album over the course of the last week, I would give it 3 stars. It failed to hold my attention as well during the second half, save for “Wreck You”. The first four songs are the cream of the crop.

    I have to disagree on “Can’t Let Go”, although I do prefer the Lucinda Williams version of the Randy Weeks tune. I also wasn’t as impressed with “Knocked Up”. Seemed a little forced to me, and an odd choice to close an album.

  3. Having listened to this album several times over the last week – I dont like “Can’t Let Go” but I like Ashley Monroe’s version much better – and you fail to mention my favorite song next to Johnny and June – which is “Love Her, Lose Me” – which I heard and loved – I would have to say that I give this album between 3 1/2 and 4 – I enjoyed it – which to me is the idea of music to enjoy it

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